why i thanked MR PEH yesterday ?


well, it's something personal and i can't express it out here. i practically CRIED. thats all i can tell.


sometimes, i feel that i'm useless. i can't overcome some of my fears, and start crying. i'll remember the frightening incident when i get the feeling. my HEART beats faster and my face gets burning hot. thats how my body react when i get scared or frightening. and in the next second, tears swell up in my eyes and i'll start crying. i hate the feeling of this.

i don't like the feeling of not knowing what will happen next, or not knowing sure of what i'm doing. i DON'T LIKE me un-sure of myself. i need to know myself, then i'll be confident. i need to know what i'm doing then i'll be sure of what to do next. i've tried to do things that i'm not sure of, but i can't, i'll get afraid and start RETREATING back into my shell. HIDE. i'll just hide in my small shell. it makes me feel SAFE and i'll know that i'm safe. AND it also makes me a LOSER. totalLOSER.


I WANT TO CHANGE! i'm trying to change, but i still can't get away the FRIGHT, UNSURE, UNKNOWN and RETREATS. i can be CRAZY, SMILING, LAUGHING, ACT-CUTING and CHATTING when i'm perfect SURE of what i'm doing. if anybody can, HELP ME or just leave me alone. i don't wanna influence you.

i'm just feeling DOWN right now. read this and forget it. i'll get back to normal after a GOOD NIGHT'S SLEEP.

Mr. PEH: Listen and remember. Just be happy within your context of responsibility.

THANKS.

Nights,
Shimin

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20th July 1991
Yuying Secondary
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