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Thursday, August 31, 2006

This is the braclet that i've made today, freshly made before i update. (= I like the first picture very much because the angle when i shot it, looks photogenic. But it was a bit blur as i didn't turn on 'macro', which is making objects clearer when taking photos near. I turn on macro in the second picture. It is made up of lace, pearls, golden plastic star and a small 'qing tian wa wa'. Take a clearer look at the pictures by click on them. And tell me whether my Photographic skills are good anot, as i'm quite sastisfied. Comment on it in the tag board.

' Vintage [qing tian wa wa] '

Today, the teacher's day concert was a sucess! After the concert, i went to Tampiness mall with Cindy. We walked for more and 2 hours without stopping, which including 1 hour in toys R'us. Haha, we the KID-dys. And cindy is determine not to change her cloak shoes in to slippers, thus, she suffered pain in her toes for more than 2 hours. Haha... anyway, she still changed when she was in the bus, on the way home. She suffered 2 hours of pain in the toes in VAIN. waHAHA...

' Sucess, only in my eyes. '

Today, saw him quite alot of times. First in the morning when we are asked to assemble at 7 am in the hall. The other times, are also in the hall, when i'm singing on stage while he was giving the awards to the teachers. He appeared and disappeared alot of times on stage as he was to go back to the backstage once he gave out the award, and prepare for the next one. Cindy was behind him, i think.

' Was he beside, or far away ? '

Signed off,
Shimin

7:24 AM sprinklinq love Y

Wednesday, August 30, 2006

'Dou Yin' sounds like a soyabean drink or something, but it is not. HaHa.. i drew this myself, looks kinda old. i have a old mind set, Haha...(= Can't tell you what i'm doing with this picture for now, i'll tell when it's time.

'The Attraction To Beans'

Today after school, i went to the teacher's day concert rehearsal. quite good, but in the end too tired, so didn't really sing it out loud. =P Tomorrow is the concert ler, NERVOUS~ i'm quite afraid. But who cares about how choir sing anyway, the lead singers are in the spotlight. mm.. i sounded jealous. alright, maybe a little? they did ask me to hold the microphone and sing, but i was not very familiar with the songs so i decided not to, as to prevent from any out-of-tunes and speechless-beats. Hope you get who i mean. (= Pray hard for everything to go on smoothly for tomorrow, especially the choir cum student leaders singing part. Good luck!

' You're on your way, Shimin. Continue to climb upwards.'

Today, i saw him kicking soccer at the parade square when i'm in school. I did peek at him, and got caught red-handed by Someone (sry, suddenly can't remeber who). Looking at him, from far.

' I'm will never dare to look straight into your eyes. '

Signed off,
Shimin

5:52 AM sprinklinq love Y

Monday, August 28, 2006

Yeappiie ! I PASSED my common test 2 MATHS paper ! so happy. (= got 31/50. i IMPROVED! wheesss~ i FINALLY PASSED my maths. people who know me should know that how horrible my maths was before. but i PASSED! wheess~~ hope that i can keep on PASSING MATHS and no failing again!!!!!!

But my biology marks was such a disapointment. Sigh... during the mid-years, i got 39/50. but common test 2 ? i only got 17/30. *shakes head* what to do now? continue to work hark and pray for my chemistry to PASS, as only 4 passes in our class, for chemistry.

'Keep on working hard Shimin, show to others that you can.'

I'm in NEED of MONEY! i'm going bankrupt soon. i have to take 2 dollars out of my pocket money everyday to pay back the money that i own my mother, which is about $50+. But noe left a few dollars only. NOW i don't even have 6 dollars to buy varnish for my clay models i've made. now i've made and painted 4 tortises, 1 bee, 1 pair of soybeans edition couple, 2 'bei ji xing de yan lei' edition models. And i'm still saving money day by day to buy the varnish them, completing the last step of the models. AH~ i've passed my maths, how about asking for a reward from my parents, and ask them to buy the varnish for me. GOOD IDEA!(= Pray hard that my parents will agree. When i've completed the clay models, i will post the pictures up here.(=

'Mummy, Daddy, can i please have a bottle of varnish as a reward for passing my maths ? '

Saw him 2 times today. First, in the canteen during recess, he was buying food from the stall set-up by yuying students. But i pretended not to see him though. Second, when going up to computer lab with literature class, he was in front of me going to another computer lab with his class. I pretended not too see him too. The two backview scences, repeating in my mind, again and again.

' The Never-Be-Spoken Memories. '

Signed off,

Shimin

6:07 AM sprinklinq love Y

Sunday, August 27, 2006

She is called 'Xiao Ying' (small shadow in direct translation). She is the daugther of 'ghost' the qing tian wa wa. As written in my last entry, 'ghost' her father is lost in yuying secondary school, so i decided to make another replacement.Isn't she cute? Look at her golden plaits!(=

'Xiao Ying true love is QingTian, mine?'

Made another version of the qing tian wawa, only samller than the first one. Cause this is the daughther ma...(=

I have only a few friends in school, this is not what i think, it is a fact. Why? i don't know. Maybe it's beacuse of my character and attitude towards everything. I'm afriad of people who i'm not familiar with, scared of talking to them. And i'm usually the one sitting their quietly when someone gets into trouble or they quarrel and having cold war between them. But let me explain, i'm not being selfish here by not helping! This is beacuse i don't want to get involved and in the end being accused of standing on someone' side. And so what if i helped? Even i helped, i still get left out by them when they reconcile. I rather be alone with no one beside me than getting in a group and get left out in the end. I'm tired of their united strenght when they are together and their complains when they quarrel. I'm WASHING MY HANDS OFF their things.

' I still got left out eventually.'

I want to let everyone know that i'm not a useless person. I want to let them know that without any of their help, i can so the thing i want to do sucessfully. I CAN!

'Shimin, carry on with your own life. On your own.'

Signed off,
Shimin

4:46 AM sprinklinq love Y

Thursday, August 24, 2006

This is the picture of the keychain called ' ghost '. He called this name because everyone thought he was a ghost. But he is not! He is a doll called ' qing tian wa wa ' ( good weather doll in direct translation), only his head was smaller than normal 'qing tian wa wa' which make him look like a ghost. I made him myself. Today is the first day i brought him out of the house. And guess what happened? he got lost! waaaa~ i'm sure he's dead in yuying secondary school, died of suffocation. Yuying doesn't give anyone a place and time to take in a deep breath, STRESS. Poor 'Ghost', i miss him. I'm going to make another one to memorate him, and not bring it out!

' Xiao Ying Loves Qing Tian ; I Love Qing Tian Wa Wa. '

People may think that i'm crazy to have feeling for a keychain. HaHa.... I bet you do too. I declare that i'm mentally and physically healthly, alright?

Today's quite a perfect day, except for the tiredness in chemistry and geography lessons. Kept singing 'bei ji xing de yan lei' in school. makes me think of 'him'.

' Things done can't be undone. '

I understand that there is no use crying over spilled milk, but what else can i do? the mistake of scolding him 2 years back has been in my mind, regreting of what i've done.

Signed off,

Shimin.

6:27 AM sprinklinq love Y

Wednesday, August 23, 2006

i'm SO crazy about D.I.Y accessories nowadays! i'm making my necklace, handphone chain, bracelet, earrings and even a shirt. Of course the shirt is still [in-planing] now.Don't know why i'm getting so involved with this D.I.Y thing. Maybe this has something to me being a cancerian, which loves all this things. But wearing things that i made myselfs make me proud. i don't know why? mm...

' I'm Proud of my SINGING and D.I.Y-ing.'

Let me recommend a song, A Nice one.
'Bei Ji Xing De Yan Lei' By Zhang Dong Liang, Found In The 'Wei Xiao Pasta Soundtrack'.
That Song Is touching. And most of all, it suits the state that i'm in now. hiaz... i'm never going to tell him that i like him..... althought he knows.

'Once Friends, Then enemys, and now STRANGERS'

I Love this song now.... ya... really loved it... i finally can express my feelings through a song! i finally found one...

Signed off,
Shimin.

6:32 AM sprinklinq love Y

Tuesday, August 22, 2006

There are some people that i want to aplologise to. Although it happened 2 years ago, but i still feel guilty for saying those harsh words at them. I didn't mean it, i was young at that time so i didn't thought over the words before i say it out. i'm really sorry. of course, i don't except them to forgive me, but i just want to let them know i'm really sorry.

# ' Their lifes are better than me, at least they have good friends that support them. '

You may not know what i'm writing about, but i'm quite sure that they will know, if they remebered.

p.s: I got my IC today! weeesss~ so happy! (=

reminder for all born in 1991, if you had applied for your IC last month, you can collect it now in your school's General Office. ( remember to bring the blue slip along^^)

Signed off,
Shimin

6:21 AM sprinklinq love Y

Monday, August 21, 2006

I'm stress-ED. but not by studies. is by the people around me. i'm now just having a thinking, is to get out this school, and change all my friends, change my character and become a new me. I don't want to be that quiet, blur and isolated me AGAIN! I have alot of thing to say but i just can't write it down here. You know, people will be looking... But i'm just going to say that i really had enough.

'Called me when they need help, Isolate me when they don't need me'
PLEASE.....i'mNOT a rubbishbin!

One more year to 'O'levels. For the time being, i will just have to depent on myself. I will show everyone that....... I CAN DO IT ON MY OWN!

Alot of people may think that i am austic, or not willing to open my mouth to speak to other, to communicate with others. But, letmeEXPLAIN, i confessed that i am quite afraid of strangers and people that i'm not familiar with. But, there was times that, i did try, i really did, i gave some people a smile and tried toking to them. but waht they replied me with? a BIG irritated look came smashing on my face. i can't help but feeling helpless and frustrated. people who didn't experience it will think i'm just over-reacting. but you will have to go throught this yourself to understand my feelings. Thats what i am wanting to say.

#If any words in this post offended anyone, please forgive and forget. i'm just trying to release some of my stress .

signed off,
Shimin

6:41 AM sprinklinq love Y