Lifee Of Xiaomiinnmiinn 2006

REASONS to chinese new year

2007-02-17T08:59:00.000-08:00

WHYE i like CHINESE NEW YEAR so much?

reason 1: gort ANG POWS, equals to getting MONEY. then i can buy more clothes and SHOES and alot more. waHAHA.

reason 2: can wear new clothes and shoes. and also a best reason to have my mum pay for the clothes and shoes. YEAH~

reason 3: a best reson to eat. DUN HAVE TO CONTROL as it is CNY! but OPPS! i'll be gaining weight during this few days... wAAA~

anyways, HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR everyone!

signed off,
SHIMIN

2007-02-13T13:33:00.000-08:00

GOOD MORNING! it's currently 5.35am now. waHAHA. i woke up at 4am.^^

these are the un-packaged version of the chocolate which i made to be given out TODAY! valantine's day! sweet~

hiaz.. today valantines.. have to spent the whole afternoon at choir. ( BOO... ) waaa~~~~~~ I DON'T WANT!

although i don't have a LOVER or something, but i can spent today with my beloved FRIEND mahz~ HRMPS~

WORST. go choir still need to be KA-JIAO and scolded by the MADAM XXX. *crys*

mm .. can i skip choir practice today ? * puppy eyes * preetaye please ?

i know this is impossible .. hiaz .. leave every to fate LORZ. what fate wants me to do, then i do lors. we CAN'T change FATE.

REN MING BA !

wahaha.. anyways, happy valentine's day. MAY all the couples in the world have a sweet and lovely romance. NON-attached like me, just be happy with FAMILY and FRIEND.

gonna start prepare for school now! TATA~

Stay Happy Always,
Shimin

5:47am

2007-02-12T13:31:00.000-08:00

it's 5.32 in the morning. and i'm eating breakfast. ganna start a new day TODAY!

to do list : ***** tidy up room.
***speech day rehearsal.
*****study for friday's CHEMISTRY test.
*** confirm with ' Ah Yi ' whether to make the CHOCOLATE fro new year.

waHAHA... i've been quite happy since FRIDAY. beCAUSE, mmmm .. don't tell you .. waHAHAHA ... but yesterday's choir practice was extremly bad and annoying. MADAM XXX kept finding faults with the SOUPRANO 1! eg.she was teaching SOUPRANO 2 and SOUP. 1 was just too tired so most of up just closed our eyes and rested, sort of sleeping. the MADAM XXX was like calling us to SHUT UP after she finished teaching the SOUP.2 and continued with ALTO. then it's like, HELLO ? we are all sleeping, HOW ARE WE GOING TO TALK? we are not even TALKING my 'DEAR' ( eeks.. i feel like PUKING immediately now) . and what the H*LL! she kept staring at me, so i stared back. I DONT LIKE HER ATTITUDE. and i think everyone have the same thinking too(= she the type of teacher who thinks highly of themselves and forget everything about others FEELINGS.

ANGER LET OUT~ smiles.

and TOMORROW's VALANTINES! yeapie!

but then again, i'll have a lonely VALANTINES AGAIN. hiaz...

Signed off,
Shimin

2007-02-07T06:10:00.000-08:00

QUEK SHI MIN, believe in yourself. you can do it. STRIVE ON!

Stay Happy Always,
Shimin

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2007-02-05T05:18:00.000-08:00

i've just CUT my HAIR yesterday! post the pictures up TOMORROW ~

Stay Happy Always,
SHIMIN

feelings of ME.

2007-02-03T06:44:00.000-08:00

why i thanked MR PEH yesterday ?

well, it's something personal and i can't express it out here. i practically CRIED. thats all i can tell.

sometimes, i feel that i'm useless. i can't overcome some of my fears, and start crying. i'll remember the frightening incident when i get the feeling. my HEART beats faster and my face gets burning hot. thats how my body react when i get scared or frightening. and in the next second, tears swell up in my eyes and i'll start crying. i hate the feeling of this.

i don't like the feeling of not knowing what will happen next, or not knowing sure of what i'm doing. i DON'T LIKE me un-sure of myself. i need to know myself, then i'll be confident. i need to know what i'm doing then i'll be sure of what to do next. i've tried to do things that i'm not sure of, but i can't, i'll get afraid and start RETREATING back into my shell. HIDE. i'll just hide in my small shell. it makes me feel SAFE and i'll know that i'm safe. AND it also makes me a LOSER. totalLOSER.

I WANT TO CHANGE! i'm trying to change, but i still can't get away the FRIGHT, UNSURE, UNKNOWN and RETREATS. i can be CRAZY, SMILING, LAUGHING, ACT-CUTING and CHATTING when i'm perfect SURE of what i'm doing. if anybody can, HELP ME or just leave me alone. i don't wanna influence you.

i'm just feeling DOWN right now. read this and forget it. i'll get back to normal after a GOOD NIGHT'S SLEEP.

Mr. PEH: Listen and remember. Just be happy within your context of responsibility.

THANKS.

Nights,
Shimin

2007-02-02T02:12:00.001-08:00

thankyou MR PEH. for understandingME.

Signed off,
SHIMIN

2007-02-02T02:12:00.000-08:00

thankyou MR PEH. for understandingME.

Signed off,
SHIMIN

Day At School

2007-02-01T04:54:00.000-08:00

intheMORNING. readyforSCHOOL~

GODs~ i look so FAT in my school UNIFORM.=X

i'm looking FAT standing beside GLADYS. she's SKINNY.

withCHARMAINE. i lookOLD, and she lookYOUNG. hmmm.....

intheGIRLStoilet. ( duh-_-''' ) cindyTONG is rinsing her mouth and i took the picture. waHAHA.

TA-DA~ loves this PHOTO LOTS~<3

VESTA, SHIMIN and half of YIMEI.

WOAMSHING and ME doing FACELIFTING ?!

COMMONTEST1 dates, only for 4C. (click picture to enlarge)

went home and POMPOM. vWA~ refreshing! eekkk.. acting CUOTE again.

another ZILIAN-ing PICTURE. don'tMIND. <3

SO, i present-ED, my life TODAY at SCHOOL~ ^^

Stay Happy Always,
Shimin

watchmechange.

canyou?

lotsa PICTURES.

2007-01-31T06:32:00.000-08:00

morePICTURES again~ waHAHA. ilovehim.

hey, stopPUKING! i was just trying to take photos of the SHINE SHINE of the GLOSS on myLIPS. and BTW, my hair is getting LONGER and LONGER. yeappie~

just to let YOU know, i'm wearing my MUMMY's TOP. well, it IS a top, but i wore it as a DRESS, which explains for the super-D short length of the 'DRESS'. pardonME for my FATlegs. =X

i was BROWSING through ZHIYANG's blog then i saw CHEN CHUXUAN's blog. looked at her pictures and found these PREETAYE pictures.

CHEN CHUXUAN and ZHIYANG. look kinda like a COUPLE hors ?

CHEN CHUXUAN and CHEN FENGLING. 2 CHENS. they are so PREETAYE~

anyways, i also got some other blogs of the 'Let It Shine' CAST. will post their links up when i'm free, i think. =P

signed off,
Shimin

my thoughts

2007-01-29T06:20:00.000-08:00

i've just learnt form the newspapers that ' Xu Wei Lun' the taiwan actress, had just died yesterday, due to a car accident. i was shocked when my mum told me that she died. and after that i spent ard 1 hour to read that 1 and a half page of article. i felt so sad after eading that article.

I have one thought after reading the article. ' Life Is So Unpredictable ' . one minute you're alive and kicking, and the next minute something may happen. i kept thinking about this since i read that article. i always get this feeling when something similar to this happens. i admit that i'm afraid of dying. i'm very afraid i'll not complete the things i want to do. some of you may thing i'm a fool to think so far, but just to let you know, Xu Wei Lun is just 28 years old this year. So young and she just left this world so suddenly. So it's really better to think far, then you'll never have regrets. LIVE LIFE TO FULLEST. Cherish everything you have, do what you want to do now. Live like there's no tomorrow, then life will NOT be full of regrets.

i know i'm saying alot but not doing it. i'm always trying to, BUT a lack of courage and confidence made me erase the thoughts of doing it. i have support from lots of relatives and friends, but i'm not confident enough. i'll always think that people are better than me, well, they are sometimes. ANYWAY, i'm building my confidence step by step already.

SO, wait and see. i'll get confident someday when you see me on the streets.

signed off,
Shimin

ice cream and me (=

2007-01-25T05:40:00.000-08:00

PICTURES~ vWA~

NOT you lars! waHAHA...

DEE-DEE-DUM. havingFUN~

vWA~ my face looks SMALLER in this pictures. YEAPPie~

well.. i do.. sometimes.. ithink.

ICECREAM MANIC competition
FRESHLY taken pictures!

here's the concept for the garnishing on the plate. two SLIPPERS, why not shoe ? cause we all SINGAPOREANS mahs.. haha..
two slippers linking to your creation name, ' Step Closer To Nature' . ^^

the SLIPPERS with the ICECREAM. the one in purple is the flower tea one, in yellow-green is the wheat grass one. YUMMY~

( why there are 3 BALLS instead of ONE? cos we couldn't find a proper icecream scooper, so we used a MELON BALLER. =P )

US<3>

taken randomly when i'm searching for something. BY cindyTONG.

taken when TONG is laughing. NICE picture huh ~ BY shiminQUEK.

tomorrow going to make the ICECREAM at NYP ler! JIAYOU x3 !

Signed off,

Shimin

2007-01-21T05:13:00.000-08:00

it's lots of PICTURES AGAIN~

in case if you didn't know, i'm smiling in this picture(= edited.

mm.. LOOKED kinda GONG here.

mm.. dunno WHYE i took a picture of this ANGLE. ?

i'm refering to the LOLLIPOP of course. i'm definately NOT sweet and lovely.

TA-DA~ it's me the super-D ZILIAN SHIMIN again~

i look like a LITTLE KID here.

i'm NOT looking at you... well, ofcourse. i not facing the cameraMAHS. waHAHAs.

其实很爱你-张韶涵

i still LIKE you.

and i'm trying my best to ERASE that fact.

Signed off,
Shimin

the gains of shopping : 13th Jan'07

2007-01-16T06:36:00.000-08:00

13th Jan'07 : theGAINSof the shopping trip.

the BLACK dress i bought. and the now-so-trendy HIGH WAIST BELT. love this LOTS~

another picture of this lovely dress with a TWIST! ^^

a lovely BROOCH. super nice in reality. and it's SUPER CHEAP~

a pair of JEANS.with pretty white LACES at the bottom. WAA~~

a pair of sweet PUMPS. ^^ it's even nicer in reality. the picture just doesn't justify for it. HRMPS!

bought my FIRST OWN makeup. starting with MASCARA 1st. bought the new 'UNSTOPPABLE' 100% no smurdge and extra length. ^^
*now saving for foundation and loose powder.

YEAPiie.. completed the shopping trip ENTRIES. waHAHA~

signed off,

Shimin

did you know?

i've always liked you

process of shopping

2007-01-15T06:14:00.000-08:00

SAT 13th Jan'07 : thePROCESS of SHOPPING

a picture taken in my DADDY's LORRY.

side view taken from a mirror in THISFASHION

front view with a SMILE

another shot of FRONT VIEW.

the necklace which i've tried on in THISFASHION. love this NECKLACE lots .. but didn't buy it.. =s

another close up shot of the NECKLACE.

a CARDIGAN that i've tried on... love it alot .. but it's $17 and my mum says it's not worth the price .. as the cloth was not in good quality.

another top that i've tried .. LOVE IT ALOTs. BUT didn't buy it as i can't think of any bottoms to match with it .. only $20... WAA~ regrets...

well, this was the process of my shopping on 13th Jan'07..
COMING UP next : the GAINS of my shopping trip. ^^

signed off,
Shimin

pictures

2007-01-06T09:17:00.000-08:00

PICTURES, PICTURES, and PICTURES~

i was looking through an old issue of 'I' weekly. then saw the backstage sence of the channel 8 drama 'BAI WAN BAO'. they are so sweet~ CHENG FENG LING is just so CUTE~

a very nice black POLKAdots top. just got it recently from my mum.
*don't mind my stupid face in the 2nd picture, i was too engrossed in taking a nice photo for the nice TOP.

a picture i drew in on of the nights of the holidays. i finally drew a eye that i am pleased with. ^^ but i can't draw a pair. the other one will look weird.

and i tried to make an esspression excatly like the one in the picture i drew. i tried very hard. the best one is this.. but still not very alike huh ?
*it's the wrong side. haha .. can't pose the other side.. my right side of the face looks nicer.. =P

signed off,
Shimin

first day~ school ....

2007-01-05T07:18:00.001-08:00

pictures taken on the first day of school .. in the MORNING.

just woke up .. GONG GONG~

mm... SLEEPY.. *yawns*

o.O WAKE UP~! it's the first day of school !

okays~ just SMILE and face the LONG UNSEEN friends. -_-'''

hair tied! grab my breakfast and off i go~

signed off,
Shimin

APOLOGY

2007-01-03T06:37:00.000-08:00

today's first day of school . a picture taken in the holidays .. about 3 days ago ba..

i'm smiling .. but not infront of ' ' ...

alright i sort of offended someone today .. *crys*

i'm not writing about it here.. (well, of course .. that's my personal thinkings and feelings)

just to say sorry to 'that person'... ( can't write the name )

i'm sorry .. i didn'y give that stare on purpose.. i was tired as i didn't sleep well the night before.. and i didn't want to care about the people beside who are making alot of noise ( talking bout' rubbish, haha ) basically i was like BLANK. mind's in a BLANK. ( too tired ). after gaining back my energy .. i've thought about it for a long time.. and realised i was too MUCH! so angry with myself.. *arghh*

CONCLUSION :: i'm very sorry.. * head down* sorry, sorry and still a sorry .. can't think of anything to say except for sorry... *bows*

p.s:: i know 'that person' can't be possibly read my blog .. ( won't waste time on my blog =S ) i've also change my friendster shoutout to a apology speech.. haha .. i hope 'that person' sees it ... well...soon... erm.. i think not so soon .. maybe this is not even noticable.. well, maybe forever .... hiaz .. well,my habits always have me offending people... i trying to change ..

signed off,
Shimin

pictures of ME!

2007-01-01T06:43:00.000-08:00

PICTURES TAKEN TODAY! 4 TYPES of ME ! waHAHA~ BTW... HAPPY NEW YEAR! this year will be a BETTER YEAR !

NOTICE:: 1 day to school reopen. ^^

WARNING:: please do not read/see this blog entry if you don't like the idea of ME being ZILIAN. there's nothing wrong of ME liking to take pictures. it is MY BUSSINESS. *bleahs*

SERIOUS... or do i look SAD? mm .. whatever you think i am..

mm .. HOPES ?

o.O RETARD-ed ( waHAHA )

actGUAIlook.
bud don't MESS with me. i'm a killer. WAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA~ *evil laughs*

signed off,
Shimin

PICTURESagain!

2006-12-31T04:56:00.000-08:00

no much WORDS .. WAhaha .. ENJOY!

the ICECREAM we did at NYPicecream competition. ^^
DELICIA-SO!(delicious)

editedPICTURE~ ^^

EDITED~

NON-edited~

the SUPER-D SHOT. thanks toMYskills ... waHAHA ~

signed off,
Shimin

13th december 2006, WEDNESDAY

2006-12-12T14:30:00.000-08:00

13th december 2006, WEDNESDAY

its now 6.31 am in the morning. why i woke up so early ? mm .. don't tell you .. waHAHA. =P

heyHEY~ it'sME. remember ma ?
not being in touch with any friends since the classBBQ, 6thdec'06.
hiaz.. FORGOTTEN.

nice ma? another pair of studs bought. waHAHA. buying earrings so often nowadays. ^^ bearBEAR. <3

the card i made on 11thdec'06, monday. can see that i really lurve BEARS. bears are just so CUTE. can't forgot cute expression of all the softtoys BEARS in minitoons. waHAHA. but can't own all of them though, one medium-sized bear at least cost 20$. i'm broke.*_*

pastashells with meatballs. in tomatosauce. ^^
i prefer meatballs to fishballs. YUMMY! i'm a meateater. can't survive without meat.
i cooked this MYSELF on 11thdec'06, monday.
long time no cook ler. waHAHA. super satisfied~

signed off,
Shimin

091206 VIVOcity

2006-12-11T02:43:00.000-08:00

9th dec '06 saturday, i went to VIVOcity withj my aunt. ^^ super-big shopping centre ~ =O

#1 - the 1st item we paid for is BEN&JERRY'S icecream. order a small cup .. $4.50 . BERRY's sorbet. super nice~ ^^

#2 - nail polish from THEFACESHOP. $2.50 ber bottle.
recommended nailpolish for students. it is cheap and easy to apply, quickdrying too . 5stars out of 5. (=

#3 - strawberry nailpolish remover from BEAUTYcredits. a nice shop with products imported from korea. ^^ $2.50. cheap~
RECOMMENDED! it has a super sweet strawberry smell and the smell stays on your fingers! the smell and the price is cheaper than the one in THEFACESHOP.
NOTICE! don't smell it directly from the bottle, the smell is only sweet when it is applied. cool huh~ ;)

#4 - bought it when going to leave the mall. fried vegetables =) very nice! yummy~

#5 - went to heartlandmall after that and bought these three earrings @ the parsar malam. (= 3 for $5 . sweet right ?

signed off,
Shimin

my day~

2006-12-08T06:33:00.000-08:00

today's 8th of december. i went to heartland and hougang mall to shop as well as to have my lunch.

i bought these items in the shopping malls .. ^^

#1 - handphone straps from heartland.

#2 - coloured paper and envelopes from popular hougang.

# - 50c postage stamps from hougang.

what did i used the bought items for ?

#1 - handphone straps to complete the handphone accessories for my aunt and god-ma. their christmas presents. handmade by ME^^ the silver charms at the end of the strap is a small love CUPID. SWEET~

#2 - coloured paper is to make christmas cards. forFUN~
the picture at the top of the black card was painted and designed by ME^^ months ago ..

close up of the picture.
wordings :: sweet memories - broken promises

#3 - no picture for the stamps.. but they are used to send out my handmades bought by online buyers...
i have a online blogshop. ^^
*secret*SHH~

taken today~
#SWEET - had a fun EARLY afternoon shopping outside and fun LATE afternoon designing, cutting and pasting at home. getting STICKY with glue~ (=

***SECRET -- i ate black 'CHAI TOW KUEY' at hougang mall for lunch. super nice~ got alot of 'CHAI PO' .. my favourites^^ and had lemonade too.

signed off,
Shimin

PICTURES says a THOUSAND words.=DD

2006-11-01T04:30:00.000-08:00

DON't really have the mood to update blogs nowAdays. THUS, here are some pictures that i've taken recently.

PICTURES says a THOUSAND words. (=

take a picture before going out=DD

picture taken from ABOVE inorder to hide my BIG face. erm.. and HEAD too .. DA TOU~ =DD

my EVERYDAY hairSTYLE to SCHOOL~ it's the EXTENDEDprograms now. AY~

SHIMIN AND YIMEI during school trip, SCIENCE centre. superD fun~

SHIMIN AND CINDY during school trip, SCIENCEcentre. love this pictureLOTS~

went to IMM with cindy after science centre THINGY. the babyPOOHbear soft toy in GIANTsuperDmart~ so cute~nice photograph. COPYRIGHTEDs.

the STICKERS i bought at PARCO on dunno whatDAE. niceRIGHT? loveitLOTS<3. COPYRIGHTEDs.

thats all for today! (=

p.s:: and about the singing competition thingy. decide not to talk about it. cause very scary~ so i've forgotten everything about it=DD mmm... what did i do ? * acts blur*

Signed off,
Shimin.

JIAYOU x1ooooooooooooooooo ! I CAN DO IT !

2006-10-25T06:42:00.000-07:00

tomorrow going to sing infront of the whole school! soNERVOUS. very scared lar~~~ wish me luck! i'll talk more about it tomorrow or on friday. (=

Wish me luck ! =DD

' JIAYOU x1oo '

SHIMIN, BE CONFIDENT !

Signed off,
Shimin

Finals!

2006-10-24T05:27:00.000-07:00

i got into the FINALS ! =DD

tml SINGING ler ! i singing ' yi shi de mei hao ' by angela zhang. JIAYOU ba !

'wish me LUCK'

Signed off,
Shimin

HELP~

2006-10-20T06:14:00.000-07:00

HEYS ! long time no update ler .. waHAHA .. cause dunno what to write about MAHZ... just watched finish 'princess hours' SUPER NICE ! the crown prince so sweet! i think he fall in love with CAI JING ler ... *starts daydreaming AGAIN* WAKE UP ! i've got serious things to do MANZ...

' how iWISH i can be the princess ... but iKNOW that will never ever HAPPEN. '

i went through the auditions of my school's chinese karaoke singing competition. super SCARY! i last minute change song, cause they can't find the karaoke track of the song i want to sing.. AHHH ~ actually sing 'yi shi de mei hao de' but then last minutes change to 'yong qi'. then i kept shivering on the STAGE. my voice did shiver abit too .. OPPS=P
Now waiting for the results to be out on MONDAY. butHELP~ i'm having a slight sore throat and a BAD running nose now! AHHHHHHH~~~~ I DON'T WANT ~~~~

' hope i will recover SOONNNNNNN~~~~~~~~ '

hiaz... i went to hougang mall today on my own... actuallly with cindy de .. but she got stuck with the school's thingy.. hiaz ... when i'm alone, i'll always think alot... and of course things like, school work, house matters and ... mm.. you know... i don't deny that i like him.. but, i don't have the courage to confess.. so... people who know, PLEASE. stop reminding me of him in school. PLEASE.

especially cindyTONG and TANyimei.

thankyou ... =DD

Signed off,
Shimin

EXAMS are OVER !

2006-10-12T03:54:00.000-07:00

whees~ finally exams are over ! stress over ler ..WA~ i during examination super stressed! * cries* finally over ler .. superD long never update blog ler .. *smiles* i hope my results will come out fine. please don't let me fail anything. atleast a PASS please... * prays*

' study until SHELL explode ler, looking for my new shell now '

i hate HER. she is so inconsiderate! she in higher class, so her exams ended earlier den me. den when i'm studying for the next day's test, she SMS-ed me about choir change of time and venue. what SHIT is this ? so INCONSIDERATE! after i recieved the email, i don't have any mood to study and memorise thing! how i wish to just call her and scold her! it's just so SHITTY ! *grr*

p.s: no name are included as not to hurt anyon. but i really wish that that person, if she reads it, she will know that i writing about her. and please, think aboutr her own actions!

Signed off,
Shimin

JIAYOU x3!

2006-10-04T06:27:00.000-07:00

TOMORROW is the chinese paper 2 and LITERATURE paper 1! i'm worried about the literature paper. and also the MATHS paper 2 on friday. under STRESS currently. this is me, always worrying about lots of things. bless me for this end-year exams.*prays*

'SHIMIN, JIAYOU x3 ! '

having alot of mixed feelings now. want to express it here. but this is not the time. i still have alot of subjects i have studied finish. i will post an entry about that after the exams.

Signed off,
Shimin

THEjourney.

2006-10-02T05:59:00.000-07:00

i went to GUAN YIN TEMPLE at bugis area, today sfter school with cindyTONG. we prayed at the temple den went shopping at PARCO.on the way back home, we did lots of stupid things in the bus.

stupidTHINGS no.1: we are eating 'POCKY' the biscuit. den we decided to challange, see who can eat half of the stick ( meaning that eating a semi circle, horizontally ) in the fastest time with breaking the stick. i won! =DD cindyTONG didn't even succeed once. her stick kept breaking. waHAHA.

stupidTHINGS no.2: we den decided to challange, who can bite away all the cream off the stick without breaking it. i won AGAIN. and again, cindyTONG didn't succeed, as her stick kept breaking. instead, she got lots of chocolate cream on her teeth, making her looking like a child with lots of tooth decay. waHAHA. and cindyTONG kept insisting that maybe it was the stick problem, as i am eating the strawberry flavour while she is eating the chocolate flavour. den we had an exchange. i didn't succeed as i ate up the whole stick when i saw people beside us looking at us. but cindyTONG didn't succeed either. the stick still became BROKEN in the hands of the terrible cindyTONG.=P

waHAHA. had such a fun time in the bus, although we attracted lots of attention from the people beside us. =DD

today, i predicted lots of things that did happen in a while's time.

things that i predicted:
1. which side of the MRT door will open, as it changes at a stop and me and cindyTONG was betting which door will open at the next stop. i got it right and i got to beat cindyTONG on the hand. i kind of slapped her hand. waHAHA.

2. whether is there another path in front, when walking to my house. i guessed right and i got to slap her hand again.

3. cindyTONG and i was waiting for cindyTONG's bus, at my house's bustop, to come for her to go home. we thought it would be a long time as we missed 3 buses when walking to my house. den cindyTONG wanted to walk home. but when we started to walk, i have this strong feeling that the bus is coming and if cindyTONG walk home, she will miss the bus and she will go ' AIYA, shouldn't have left the bustop! ' . so i told her that i got the feeling that the bus will come soon. so we waiting for a while. and WOW! the bus really came in a short while!

p.s:: cindyTONG did a very stupid running style when she wanted to run to the bustop when we are VERY far away from the bustop. waHAHA.

mm.. i predicted things that did really happen? how can it be? i can't believe this! maybe something is going to happen soon. coz i feels weird to be suddenly so lucky today, when i'm always the one wrong when betting and guessing. pray that nothing bad will happen. i'm sure nothing will.

today, i'm always feeling a sense of so called ' loneliness ' around me, even though there's someone around me. the different type of loneliness cannot be expressed through words or drawings. it's weird. i'm scared.

MARSHmellows. =DD

2006-09-29T06:39:00.000-07:00

these are the pictures of the heartSHAPED marshmellows i bought at miniTOONS a few days back. of course, these pictures are taken on the day i bought them. please comment on my photographic skills.please~~~~~

Signed off,
Shimin

p.s: please scroll down, i just posted an entry on today's exams not long ago. =DD

6hours of tests and EXAMS.wa~~~

2006-09-29T05:19:00.000-07:00

today was the first day ofEXAMS. english and chinese paperONE. and adding to the worst, after 4 hours of both english and chinese, we, the secondary 3 express haveMATHS mock test, duration: 2HOURS?!!!
imagine. 6HOURS of continuous tests and exams. phew! superD tired after the whole 6hours. brainCELLS was limited inSUPPLY. useD them up during the 6HOURS. especially theMATHSmock test. teacher said that the mock paper wasn't counted as a difficult paper. butHELLO? i left 21marks BLANK? and you still say it is not difficult? hiaz. after subtracting the 21marks, the highest that i can get is only 59, not considering that the sums that i did, some may be wrong. hiaz. next FRIDAY, 6th sept 2006, is the REALmaths END-of-YEAR exam, paper 2. PRAYhard that i will at least get a pass.

the essays that i wrote today both are concerning about friendships and family. i wrote alot. as i have personal experience in both of these themes. but i can't write it up here as i may get SUED by someone, or someone may be hurt. although i didn't write any names in my essays. but if thePERSON reads it, i think the person may know it.

today, i was caught red-handedAGAIN! *pouts*
waHAHA. caught red-handed doing what? something not evil of course. not telling you. BLEAHS~~~ =DD

Signed off,
Shimin

theSTRESS-ed little girl

2006-09-27T06:10:00.000-07:00

SHE canceled the remedial again. exams are coming. and we are supposed to revise. during term 3, she didn't came for 2 months, and when she came back, guess what? she gave us the common test, and the marks from the common test are multiply-ed by 4, and recorded into the record book. WHY? this is because, she didn't give us any work to do during the 2 months absent-y. thus, no other marks can be added to the common test marks. i only got 48 for this subject in common test 2. FAILED. and now? she kept being absent when there are two periods for her lessons. and eats our own time for extra lessons. and when time is alreday fixed, she cancelled it at the last minute.

EXAMS are coming, i worked hard for my studies since the starting of this year. I DON'T WANT to flunk my exams because of this subject. i really worked hard, i don't want to retain or get into NA. it's not i look down on NA, is i really put in hard work, i don't want to work hard for nothing for the whole year and get bad results because for this subject.
i really, really, don't want.

choosing this subject is my choice. and what can i say? what can i do? i have to be responsible for my decision. the only thing that i can do now is..... work harder, get into the battle field. but frankly speaking, i really regret making this choice. i really regret.

' SHIMIN, JIAYOU! '

i'm so stressed out now. exams, tests, CCAs, teachers, friends, and lots more things pressing down on me. time is not enough. i need time. i really more time for everything, everything that is around me.

' shimin, letting go something maybe a good choice. the more you try to grab it, the more is goes away. just like sand. leave everything to fate. now isn't the time to think about everything else. concentrate on your studies, prove to everyone that you can do it. YOU CAN! '

i know this isn't the time to think about him, but i only want to say:

我们的相识会是个美丽的意外吗？还是，会是一场在我的生活里打转，却一直没结果的意外？我想知道。

(maybe you will have to change your encoding to simplified chinese to see it)

NOTE:: today's post doesn't meant any harm or hurt anyone. if it does offend you, then i'll say, i'm sorry. no names are included inorder not to hurt anyone's feelings.

Signed off,
Shimin

daa` ACCESSORIES mummie bought for me from GENTING. <3

2006-09-25T04:02:00.000-07:00

these are the accessories that MYmummy bought for me from GENTing. just got it yesterday. the prices of these are HALF-ed compared to prices in singapore. YEAPIIE!

'muackMUACK. '

Signed off,
Shimin

PICTURESsays a thousandWORDS.

2006-09-24T06:27:00.000-07:00

picturesSAYS a thousandWORDS. =D

Signed off,
Shimin

Sweety PHOTOS. =DD

2006-09-23T05:21:00.000-07:00

These are some of the pictures taken at SWEETY fans session. pictures are not very clear and small in size as i RESIZEd them. email me if you want any of the clear and un-resized pictures here. =DD

COMMENT on the TAGboard.

scroll downwards too. i just post an ENTRY this morning!

Signed off,
Shimin

EXAMS~~~~~

2006-09-22T21:41:00.000-07:00

Did you see my class photo? isn't itNICE? LOVEitLOTS~ And the picture with myLOVELYbear,HERO, nah... he isn't the mainLEAD in this picture. The mainLEAD is the BLACKandWHITE necklace. i finished it on thursday, 21st of september 2oo6, the day i bought the materials at CHINAtown with CINDYtong. THANKyou cindyTONG, for accompanyingME! LOVEyaLOTS. AND the 2 other photos i took it atHOME. [obviousLY~] quite ACTING CUTE in the 2 pictureS. But i love the hairSTYLE. [ iKNOWyou can't see the hairstyle in the photo ] i tied 2 SMALL ponytails in a special and MESSY way. smileS~ =DD [ 'SCOLD' me actingCUTE in the TAGboard if you want. i don'tMIND. (= ]

' myLOVELYpal, HERO daa` BEARbear '

EXAMS are coming!!! someoneHELPme~ *shouts* i SOgonna die. iTRIED revising my MATHS yesterday, BUT when i started doing the past chapters assements, i realised THAT i FORGOT almostEVRYTHING! waa~~~~~ anyone WILLING to TUTOR ME? *pouts*

'SHIMIN! time for the BATTLE! jiayou~ '

YESTERDAY, i went to heartland mall with CINDYtong. we bought a garlicBREAD at cold storage. [NEW bakery opened in cold storage] and we was OMG! the bread was so hard to chew! something like a stone. But it tasteD nice! =DD den when we at the VEGETABLEdepartment, i was looking for vegetables for yesterday's dinner [myMUM went to GENTING with her company], then cindyTONG saw 'him' outside. i saw him too, and i divert the topic by kept talking about the 'butterHEADlettuce' which was in my hand. i bought the ingredients and i paid for it at the counter farAWAY from him, as he was near the expressCOUNTER looking at batteries or something. OKAY~ ending it here. i'm listening to jolin's 'KAI CHANG BAI'.

' FORGETing soon, hopING it will end SOON '

Signed off,
Shimin

i MISSED their dance.

2006-09-19T04:43:00.000-07:00

Here's the link on youtube of SWEETY dancing their new song on the auto session. MISSED it as i'm at the back. CAN't see ANYthing.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=b51oLXpHnYg&mode=related&search=

i'll post another entry tomorrow if i'm free. quite TIRED now.

Signed off,
Shimin

superD SWEET-ty

2006-09-16T23:50:00.000-07:00

went to Sweety fans session and autograph session yeaterday. superD happy! QIAOx2 is superD cute and pretty too! i went superD upclose with her. SHE IS SUPERd PRETTY AND CUTE! and i got to take a group photo with other fans and sweety at the fans session as i am a K BOX's member and i register for the group photo. and this is the reason why i got so up close with QIAOx2. OHMYGOD! she is really superD cute! but in the group photo, my 1/2 of my face was coverd by YANx2 who is 1/2-squading in front of me. (grr...) I took alot of pictures at the fans session which all superD clear! and in alot of pictures QIAOx2 look so cute! but poor QIAOx2, she got flu, i even got a picture of her coughing!

After the fans session was the group photo taking time, but we waited for sweety to get ready for about 1/2 an hour, as they have to sign the K BOX posters or something. After the group photo shoot, me and my friend rushed to the autograph session, and we got there at about 5pm. we were at the back, really very back. sweety started the autograph session at 6.30pm, and they did perform the song ' huan yan qiao yu ' which includes dancing! ay~ i wished to see them dance since last year, their last album. they didn't dance their song at last year's autograph session. BUT i didn't see them dance as I WAS AT THE BACK! i couldn't see anything! (grr.. ahhh~~~~~) and of course i didn't take any good pictures since i was at the back. then when it was my turn to go on stage to let sweety sign their album, QIAOx2 was the first on to sign and i gave her the letter that i wrote to her, and she said THANKYOU to me and shaked my hand! YANx2 too... but i didn't wrote any letter to her.. ( i'm more interested in QIAOx2) (i'm not at LES) after everything, i went home alone in the 88 bus. and at home i looked at the pictures i took in the computer. the picture at the fans session was great! but those at the autograph session was horrible... nvm .. at least i got to look at QIAOx2 ... superD upclose... *smiling happily*

*superD QIAOx2 fan FORever. *

p.s:: didn't post the pictures i took up as i was too lazy to put on the copyright thing on the pictures.. (don't want anyone to steal them, if any sweety fans saw them). will post them up IF i got any free time to put the copyright on. =DD

Signed off,
Shimin

continue to scroll down for SCHOOL's special!=)

SCHOOL'S special.

2006-09-16T23:40:00.000-07:00

SCHOOL's special

MONDAY is the first day of school! got up in the morning at 5.45 am to prepare for school. these pictures were taken in the morning. (early in the mroning take photo. ZILIAN)=DD

SCHOOL was broing~ and superD tired too! kept wanting to sleep at class.. and during FRC, i was superD sleepy... and there are so many superD long and boring talks.. ay~ (talks are always a must on the first day of school_bleahs~~~~~)

' there is still homework! ' *pouts*

And when the day in the school is over, i was superD happy! when to heartland MALL with ah TONG and den went home!

'first day of school!'

signed off,

Shimin

Tomorrow's the day !

2006-09-15T06:21:00.000-07:00

These wo pictures are takn yesterday. Like it alot, especially the second one, the one without smiling, (act cute der). But think it will be nicer without my specs on.(=Well, it is only MY opinion. I don't know about yours.

' ACT CUTE '

I HAVE DECIDED! i'm going to wear contact lenses next year!

Tomorrow is the day! SWEETY AUTOGRAPH SESSION. going out of my house at 11.30 and meeting my friends at hougang mall mrt. den going to orchard KBOX to sweety fans sessions, whic starts at 3pm. going there so early as heard that the venue is small so need to go there earlier to register. After the fans session, at about 4.30pm, we'll fly to JUNCTION 8 to queue for the autograph session which will be starting at 6.30pm. =DD good luck for me tomorrow! superD excited!

' Super QIAO2 FAN '

School's specials will be posted on sunday. =DD

Signed off,
Shimin

LITerature night class FUN~~~~~

2006-09-14T07:47:00.000-07:00

Today went for literature extra night class, from 7.30 pm to 9.00 pm. Quite fun, although the school was pitch black. very SCARY~~~

BEFORE going for the lit lessons, i stay at home and watched 'totally entertainment' (wanquanyule) and while watching it, i PAINT-ed my nails with lots of stupid colours, such as hot pink and shiny blue. (as shown above) at the end of all the stupid colours, i manage to do one that is quite presentable. i like it quite a lot, but when it was drying, i smuged it. GRR....

It's late now, 11pm. gotta sleep soon. Update tomorrow then.

p.s:: school's specials will be postponed to this weekends. stay tune!

Signed off,
Shimin

dogboneNECKLACE~

2006-09-11T03:17:00.000-07:00

These pictures are taken on 9th sept, last saturday. I went to chinatown with my parents and my brother. the handcraft shop was there so bought a few materials to make a necklace. Spent $9.60 on the materials. and made a super duper unique necklace, as shown on the pictures. LOVE it LOTS~~~~~ comment on the tagboarD pleasE.... =DD

' lovelY dogBONE '

p.s: STAY TUNE tomorrow for SCHOOL's specials.

Signed off,
Shimin.

i LOVE my dinner.

2006-09-08T06:23:00.000-07:00

In one of the pictures, seems like i have BIG-SMALL eyes. BUT i must clarify that i don't! These tupe of pictures came out like this, only when i look up to take a photo or i concentrate to much on the eyes. AS my right eye is a double-eyelid and my left is a semi-single-semi-double-eyelid. OKAY~ you don't know what i'm talking about. anyway, i post tis picture because i supposed i looked like a hamster here. DON'T KNOW WHY~ whoosss~~~~~

' maa` HAMSTER SMILE~ '

Today, i'm not planning to go out in the first place. BUT, i have to. As my parents will be home late today and i have to buy dinner for both me AND my brother. bought MACDONALD's for both of us, fillet burgur meal for my brother and grilled chicken foldover (the foldover only) for myself. grilled chicken foldover is the only non-fried item that will cure my hungriness in macdonald's. AND it is not so fattenning, as the only fattening ingredient in it is only the little mayonnise. What is in the foldover? 2 pieces of grilled chicken, lots of lettuce, a little onions (my favourite), 2 pieces of tomato and a little mayonnise. HEALTHY CHOICE and perfect for me!

' i LOVE grilled chicken foldover from MACDONALD's, superD NICE! YUMmy '

' i have NOTHING to talk about him, today. anyway, on other days too. hiaz, holidays are going to be OVER '

Signed off,
Shimin

Nothing to talk about.

2006-09-06T21:21:00.000-07:00

didn't post anything here because i couldn't get into blogger website. i don't know why... anyway, this photo is taken yesterday, at night. the photo is orange-y in colour because i'm in my parent's room, and it's room colour is orange. OKAY, i'm talking rubbish!

' Nothing to talk about '

Maybe i'll post another entry later in the night time, if i have something to write about.

WACKY and TIRED day.

2006-09-05T04:29:00.000-07:00

whooss~~~~~
feeling wacky today.

' why am i feeling wacky and tired at the same time? WEIRD~ '

why am i feeling tired? cause i went to dunno what research place today with mr teoh and some other classes. kinda bored. and my legs are aching, as i was standing for the whole activity over there, and then making my way back home from north bonea vista ( erm .. did i spelled it correctly? whatever...=P ) so tiring. and it was a hungry journey too, as i didn't eat really eat lunch. ( does a small bar of incredibly sweet mars chocolate icecream count as my lunch? mm.. nahh.... ) on the way back to the bonea vista ( wrong spelling again! ) a piece of OLD CHANG KEE's carrot cake saved my life ( or else i will collaspe of hunger ). Thanks to YIMEI as the carrot cake belongs to her. wheesss~ there's 'maggie and me' and 'my sassy neighbour' on channel 5 today! superD FUNNY shows! 30 mins to the show, and what time it is? BATH TIME for me!

' to YIMEI :: happy? i placed your name in my today's thankyou list. (= '

mm... lets not talk about him for once... (=

Signed off,
Shimin

my number01.

2006-09-04T06:08:00.000-07:00

isn't the apple cute? and thats the picture of me wearing one of my creations ' bei ji xing de yan lei -version 01- ', isn't she cute ? well i mean, of course i'm referring to the star, not me. waHAHA..... comment on the apples or my picture if you want... on the tagboard! (=

' ping guo ban de chu lian, apple's first love '

today was such a boring day at home. nothing to do at home. and i spent around 1 1/2 hours singing songs that i had never sung for a long time. and what i can say is my singing had deproved, or maybe the reason behind my not-so-good singing today is my sensitive nose. the itchy nose irritating me!

' my nose....ahCHOOOOOOO! '

i'm talking on the phone with cindy, about number01. waHAHA... not really thinking about him today... as i am trying to think of a way to improve my emotions when singing.... mm... i don't know how, as i'm not in a relationship before!

' who's my number01 ? '

Signed off,
Shimin

2006-09-02T21:24:00.000-07:00

look at my CUTE-ty little clay models! (= aren't they CUTE ? And thats me with three of my tortises, which includes one that couldn't squezze into the picture.... didn't upload the picture yesterday cause my mom wins the fight with me for the computer. ( Grrr.... ) waHAHA.... comment on the clay models and my photographic skills on the tagboard.. PLEASE.... * puppy eyes * =DD
p.s:: i've just made a few clay apples. i'll upload the pictures once they're done.

' love MY CUTE-ty clay models '

I wanna go out today! but i can't. Firstly, no one wants to go out with me. Secondly, I don't know where to go. I've been wishing to go K BOX to sing for months. There are so many songs in my mind that i want to sing. But i've no money, and no one wants to go. People think that spending 20 dollars to go singing is a waste of money and time, as i'll spent up to 6 hours in there. But i don't think so. Actually, i think it is quite worth it. Maybe it is because i'm very interested in singing, as one of my past-time hobbies is singing, singing and still singing. I sing wherever i go. no matter what time, where i am, or what occasion it is, i'll sing if i'm not tired. I don't know why. I JUST LOVE SINGING! and of course D.I.Y-ing. =DD

' Singing, SINGING and still singing '

How i wish Holidays are forever. So that i will not see him, which i will when i go to school, and forget everything about him. And for an addition, no HOMEWORKS. waHAHA... if only HOLIDAYS are forever.

' i GUESS the camp is fun '

Signed off,
Shimin

Lucky day.(=

2006-09-01T06:59:00.000-07:00

Yeappie! I bought the Varnish for my clay models today! My daddy paid for it as i made a tortise for him! (= i varnished all my clay models and i will upload the pictures here tomorrow!

' my CUTE-ty little clay models! '

Today is such a lucky day! i finally got my clay varnish and i took some pictures of myself that i liked very much personally. (= Above are some of the many that i took. (= LUCKY.

' Shimin, it's your lucky day! '

Holidays are a rest for my mind, heart and eyes. Without having to see him which makes me think alot, about him.

' not really, ACTUALLY. '

Signed off,
Shimin

Sucess!

2006-08-31T07:24:00.000-07:00

This is the braclet that i've made today, freshly made before i update. (= I like the first picture very much because the angle when i shot it, looks photogenic. But it was a bit blur as i didn't turn on 'macro', which is making objects clearer when taking photos near. I turn on macro in the second picture. It is made up of lace, pearls, golden plastic star and a small 'qing tian wa wa'. Take a clearer look at the pictures by click on them. And tell me whether my Photographic skills are good anot, as i'm quite sastisfied. Comment on it in the tag board.

' Vintage [qing tian wa wa] '

Today, the teacher's day concert was a sucess! After the concert, i went to Tampiness mall with Cindy. We walked for more and 2 hours without stopping, which including 1 hour in toys R'us. Haha, we the KID-dys. And cindy is determine not to change her cloak shoes in to slippers, thus, she suffered pain in her toes for more than 2 hours. Haha... anyway, she still changed when she was in the bus, on the way home. She suffered 2 hours of pain in the toes in VAIN. waHAHA...

' Sucess, only in my eyes. '

Today, saw him quite alot of times. First in the morning when we are asked to assemble at 7 am in the hall. The other times, are also in the hall, when i'm singing on stage while he was giving the awards to the teachers. He appeared and disappeared alot of times on stage as he was to go back to the backstage once he gave out the award, and prepare for the next one. Cindy was behind him, i think.

' Was he beside, or far away ? '

Signed off,
Shimin

prayHARD for tomorrow!

2006-08-30T05:52:00.000-07:00

'Dou Yin' sounds like a soyabean drink or something, but it is not. HaHa.. i drew this myself, looks kinda old. i have a old mind set, Haha...(= Can't tell you what i'm doing with this picture for now, i'll tell when it's time.

'The Attraction To Beans'

Today after school, i went to the teacher's day concert rehearsal. quite good, but in the end too tired, so didn't really sing it out loud. =P Tomorrow is the concert ler, NERVOUS~ i'm quite afraid. But who cares about how choir sing anyway, the lead singers are in the spotlight. mm.. i sounded jealous. alright, maybe a little? they did ask me to hold the microphone and sing, but i was not very familiar with the songs so i decided not to, as to prevent from any out-of-tunes and speechless-beats. Hope you get who i mean. (= Pray hard for everything to go on smoothly for tomorrow, especially the choir cum student leaders singing part. Good luck!

' You're on your way, Shimin. Continue to climb upwards.'

Today, i saw him kicking soccer at the parade square when i'm in school. I did peek at him, and got caught red-handed by Someone (sry, suddenly can't remeber who). Looking at him, from far.

' I'm will never dare to look straight into your eyes. '

Signed off,
Shimin

Good News, I've PASSED MATHS !

2006-08-28T06:07:00.000-07:00

Yeappiie ! I PASSED my common test 2 MATHS paper ! so happy. (= got 31/50. i IMPROVED! wheesss~ i FINALLY PASSED my maths. people who know me should know that how horrible my maths was before. but i PASSED! wheess~~ hope that i can keep on PASSING MATHS and no failing again!!!!!!

But my biology marks was such a disapointment. Sigh... during the mid-years, i got 39/50. but common test 2 ? i only got 17/30. *shakes head* what to do now? continue to work hark and pray for my chemistry to PASS, as only 4 passes in our class, for chemistry.

'Keep on working hard Shimin, show to others that you can.'

I'm in NEED of MONEY! i'm going bankrupt soon. i have to take 2 dollars out of my pocket money everyday to pay back the money that i own my mother, which is about $50+. But noe left a few dollars only. NOW i don't even have 6 dollars to buy varnish for my clay models i've made. now i've made and painted 4 tortises, 1 bee, 1 pair of soybeans edition couple, 2 'bei ji xing de yan lei' edition models. And i'm still saving money day by day to buy the varnish them, completing the last step of the models. AH~ i've passed my maths, how about asking for a reward from my parents, and ask them to buy the varnish for me. GOOD IDEA!(= Pray hard that my parents will agree. When i've completed the clay models, i will post the pictures up here.(=

'Mummy, Daddy, can i please have a bottle of varnish as a reward for passing my maths ? '

Saw him 2 times today. First, in the canteen during recess, he was buying food from the stall set-up by yuying students. But i pretended not to see him though. Second, when going up to computer lab with literature class, he was in front of me going to another computer lab with his class. I pretended not too see him too. The two backview scences, repeating in my mind, again and again.

' The Never-Be-Spoken Memories. '

Signed off,

Shimin

Carry On With My Own Life

2006-08-27T04:46:00.000-07:00

She is called 'Xiao Ying' (small shadow in direct translation). She is the daugther of 'ghost' the qing tian wa wa. As written in my last entry, 'ghost' her father is lost in yuying secondary school, so i decided to make another replacement.Isn't she cute? Look at her golden plaits!(=

'Xiao Ying true love is QingTian, mine?'

Made another version of the qing tian wawa, only samller than the first one. Cause this is the daughther ma...(=

I have only a few friends in school, this is not what i think, it is a fact. Why? i don't know. Maybe it's beacuse of my character and attitude towards everything. I'm afriad of people who i'm not familiar with, scared of talking to them. And i'm usually the one sitting their quietly when someone gets into trouble or they quarrel and having cold war between them. But let me explain, i'm not being selfish here by not helping! This is beacuse i don't want to get involved and in the end being accused of standing on someone' side. And so what if i helped? Even i helped, i still get left out by them when they reconcile. I rather be alone with no one beside me than getting in a group and get left out in the end. I'm tired of their united strenght when they are together and their complains when they quarrel. I'm WASHING MY HANDS OFF their things.

' I still got left out eventually.'

I want to let everyone know that i'm not a useless person. I want to let them know that without any of their help, i can so the thing i want to do sucessfully. I CAN!

'Shimin, carry on with your own life. On your own.'

Signed off,
Shimin

' Xiao Ying Loves Qing Tian ; I Love Qing Tian Wa Wa. '

2006-08-24T06:27:00.000-07:00

This is the picture of the keychain called ' ghost '. He called this name because everyone thought he was a ghost. But he is not! He is a doll called ' qing tian wa wa ' ( good weather doll in direct translation), only his head was smaller than normal 'qing tian wa wa' which make him look like a ghost. I made him myself. Today is the first day i brought him out of the house. And guess what happened? he got lost! waaaa~ i'm sure he's dead in yuying secondary school, died of suffocation. Yuying doesn't give anyone a place and time to take in a deep breath, STRESS. Poor 'Ghost', i miss him. I'm going to make another one to memorate him, and not bring it out!

' Xiao Ying Loves Qing Tian ; I Love Qing Tian Wa Wa. '

People may think that i'm crazy to have feeling for a keychain. HaHa.... I bet you do too. I declare that i'm mentally and physically healthly, alright?

Today's quite a perfect day, except for the tiredness in chemistry and geography lessons. Kept singing 'bei ji xing de yan lei' in school. makes me think of 'him'.

' Things done can't be undone. '

I understand that there is no use crying over spilled milk, but what else can i do? the mistake of scolding him 2 years back has been in my mind, regreting of what i've done.

Signed off,

Shimin.

crazy-ED

2006-08-23T06:32:00.000-07:00

i'm SO crazy about D.I.Y accessories nowadays! i'm making my necklace, handphone chain, bracelet, earrings and even a shirt. Of course the shirt is still [in-planing] now.Don't know why i'm getting so involved with this D.I.Y thing. Maybe this has something to me being a cancerian, which loves all this things. But wearing things that i made myselfs make me proud. i don't know why? mm...

' I'm Proud of my SINGING and D.I.Y-ing.'

Let me recommend a song, A Nice one.
'Bei Ji Xing De Yan Lei' By Zhang Dong Liang, Found In The 'Wei Xiao Pasta Soundtrack'.
That Song Is touching. And most of all, it suits the state that i'm in now. hiaz... i'm never going to tell him that i like him..... althought he knows.

'Once Friends, Then enemys, and now STRANGERS'

I Love this song now.... ya... really loved it... i finally can express my feelings through a song! i finally found one...

Signed off,
Shimin.

SORRY-ed

2006-08-22T06:21:00.000-07:00

There are some people that i want to aplologise to. Although it happened 2 years ago, but i still feel guilty for saying those harsh words at them. I didn't mean it, i was young at that time so i didn't thought over the words before i say it out. i'm really sorry. of course, i don't except them to forgive me, but i just want to let them know i'm really sorry.

# ' Their lifes are better than me, at least they have good friends that support them. '

You may not know what i'm writing about, but i'm quite sure that they will know, if they remebered.

p.s: I got my IC today! weeesss~ so happy! (=

reminder for all born in 1991, if you had applied for your IC last month, you can collect it now in your school's General Office. ( remember to bring the blue slip along^^)

Signed off,
Shimin

STRESS-ed

2006-08-21T06:41:00.000-07:00

I'm stress-ED. but not by studies. is by the people around me. i'm now just having a thinking, is to get out this school, and change all my friends, change my character and become a new me. I don't want to be that quiet, blur and isolated me AGAIN! I have alot of thing to say but i just can't write it down here. You know, people will be looking... But i'm just going to say that i really had enough.

'Called me when they need help, Isolate me when they don't need me'
PLEASE.....i'mNOT a rubbishbin!

One more year to 'O'levels. For the time being, i will just have to depent on myself. I will show everyone that....... I CAN DO IT ON MY OWN!

Alot of people may think that i am austic, or not willing to open my mouth to speak to other, to communicate with others. But, letmeEXPLAIN, i confessed that i am quite afraid of strangers and people that i'm not familiar with. But, there was times that, i did try, i really did, i gave some people a smile and tried toking to them. but waht they replied me with? a BIG irritated look came smashing on my face. i can't help but feeling helpless and frustrated. people who didn't experience it will think i'm just over-reacting. but you will have to go throught this yourself to understand my feelings. Thats what i am wanting to say.

#If any words in this post offended anyone, please forgive and forget. i'm just trying to release some of my stress .

signed off,
Shimin

2006-01-03T03:13:00.000-08:00

Today is the first day of school... i miss my old class so much .. hiaz ..

Brand New Year

2005-12-30T16:48:00.000-08:00

A Few More Hours And It Is 2006. A New Year And I will Start Posting Entries In Here.

`*=- A New Year = A New Start -=*`